Hard Days Night

Ever been on a bus with a screaming baby? Or in the house as the baby is your own? What happened to my happy baby? She screams all day and most of the night. Ever been so close to just snapping? Don't worry ive been there I was today. Bad mum? No! Just a normal mum. Surely anyone would crack under all this? Yes? No? I don't know... 

Today and yesterday have been my worst days. Ive said that before and will probably say it again. Is it my baby's fault no it isn't, she's a baby after all. She's cutting her first tooth, I remember wisdom teeth it must be painful. Cry yes I don't mind, scream and scream and scream until your red in the face and along yourself sick. I walked away from that. I couldn't deal with that. I left my baby to cry, because I got emotional. I cried as I listened to her but my body wouldn't move I needed 5 minutes. I needed peace. My head was banging my ears ringing and I felt awful.  This parenting lark isn't all it's cracked up to be. My baby was hurting I was hurting. I couldn't do anything! Despite calpol, nurofen snd anbesol she was still hurting.

So yeah I'm that woman on the bus with the screaming baby or her boob hanging out to comfort her baby. Whichever choice I choose you'll judge me for it. I leave her to cry you'll moan and if I get my boob out I'll be playing into her hands and showing myself up. I don't want to be either, I'll tell you what I want?

I want to be a good mother who comforts her child when she needs items id that means letting her feed from me then that's what I'll do.

I want to take her pain away so if I leave her crying in your presence while I'm searching for calpol help me and comfort her.

Don't judge because we're young. 

Don't judge because I have aentsl health issue.

I'm a good parent.

A great parent

I don't need your opinion 

Baby-Led Weaning

Just recently I have started to wean my daughter. I wanted to do baby-led weaning and just let her play with the food or eat it if she pleases. Well she's showing a great interest in my food but doesn't show any interest in picking food up and eating it. So we've decided that as we're doing baby-led weaning we'd see if she would eat some food that was smashed up a bit and she loves it. She's deffinately going to love most foods the only thing she's turned her face away from is baby rice and I don't blame her. She's currently having 2 spoon-fed meals and lunchtime is playtime with food.
Today we took it a step further by getting her highchair down and she looks like a little dot in it. Ok this is only a short post but if you refer back to silent Sunday you will see her in her highchair.

Nursery Rhyme Variants - Twinkle Twinkle

So we all know the nursery rhyme Twinkle Twinkle. Well just recently it seems to be the only thing my 5 month old will sleep or nap too. Ive got so bored of singing the same verse over and over so I've come up with a few of my own.
twinkle twinkle mummys star you are special yes you are shining up above so high lighting roads from where you lie
twinkle twinkle little star do you know how loved you are you are tired go to sleep and your precious dreams do keep

Silent Sunday

Lazy Not No More

 Today I got why my mum gets peed off with me and my dad leaving things lying around. I come down this morning and it's raining heavily so walking the dog has been suspended till later so in the meantime I decided to help tidy up. Well there's bottles everywhere, crisp packets, shoes all over the place, dog toys everywhere. I really do understand it now. 
How can you expect one person to tidy up after her husband, daughter and granddaughter. Well my reasons are how can I expect Seren to tidy up after herself if she doesn't see me her mum tidy up myself. So I vowed no more. Since monday I've been on it. I've helped do what I can in the house and I've walked the dog twice a day. 
It's not fair for one person to be doing it all every day, day in day out. That's not right. I think a lot of what needs doing is the washing! There's so many clothes to wash and dry and take up.. This is where I make a mess because I don't always put the clothes away so this is where my mess comes from. So now it's business as usual. Clothes to be put away. House work to be done... Commencing Now

Silent Sunday

Life Rules

We have to have rules in life otherwise where would we stand? Our rules are called Laws upholded by the police and courts in our country. But life rules are what we set ourselves so from now on let's give this a go. 

1. Smile everyday 

2. Love yourself

3. Find one positive a day

4. Be more relaxed 

5. Help more

6. Be an adult

7. Do boring adult things

Let's see how I get on with these. Wish me luck I'll need it x